We all have a past. If we look back, it hurts.
Though there are good memories, when we look back there are memories that hurt us too.
If you step outside and ask people in their mid 30’s to share a memory from their past; they will answer with extra caution because they wouldn’t want to let out the dark part of their past to any stranger. But if you were to ask a kid what he did in the past year, he would have a ton of happy stories to tell you.
So, why are we that way? Why do we, in our 20’s and 30’s, clearly remember the past hurtful memories more than the joyful ones?
Why do we remember the painful times when our hearts were broken, more than the times when we found peace, joy and happiness in Christ?
Why do we remember the times we were embarrassed or criticized in front of people than the times we were praised and appreciated?
Maybe such memories are buried deep in our hearts that often times we intentionally leave them there with a desire to keep them as a monument of our past. Some people like to keep their memories bottled up this way. Some like to erase the pain. Some are torn between the two desires, whether to keep the memories or let go of them. But one thing to remember is that the more we keep the past hurt and allow them to linger around, the more it will become the weight that pulls us down.
No matter how much we move forward in life, we find ourselves coming back to the same old memories, life and habits. If we actually analyse the scenario, we really haven’t moved forward rather we have only moved forward carrying with us the shackles of the past and chains of guilt and the hurt still remains tied on to us.
I love this scripture where the Psalmist says,
Psalms 130:3. If you, LORD, kept a record of sins, Lord, who could stand?
He goes on to say,
Psalms 130:4. But with you there is forgiveness, so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
The Psalmist had a deeper revelation. He knew that God never kept a record of his past or of his mistakes. The psalmist knew that when he prayed to God and repented and said, “I am sorry, God”, indeed he was forgiven and his mistake forgotten.
God knows our past and He knows all that we have done and all that we are doing and all that we are going to do. Yet He is a loving God who offers forgiveness the very moment we repent – so that we can be called His children.
So here comes the important revelation. Since God has forgiven our sins and hasn’t kept a record of our past, we as his children do not have any obligations, rights or responsibilities to keep our past flaws alive in us!
We are now, called to serve him with all our heart, soul, and mind: throwing away the past that hurt us, throwing away the past that kept us back all these days, throwing away the past that told us we are incapable of achieving anything in life. We are now, called to serve him with peace, joy and tranquillity.
If God doesn’t keep a record of our sins, then we shouldn’t too!
God is able to make all things new in our life.
Heb 8:12 says, For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.”
Forgetting past hurtful memories is a miracle. Only God can help us get out of it. Ask Him and He will heal you of every past hurtful memory that is buried deep in your heart.
And now that you have been forgiven, restored and set free; prepare yourself for the battle you are called to win.
Heb. 12:1-2 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
Let’s us throw away every hurtful memory by asking God to heal us and help us get over it. And let us set ourselves strong on the course that we are to run by fixing our eyes on Jesus, the one who is the author of our faith and the finisher of our faith.
In my former days, I was a pornography addict but now I have developed a hate and displeasure towards it. It’s been five years since I have been set free and have not had even a glimpse of those websites. That is something only God can do. God has changed my life so much that the past doesn’t hurt now. Rather when I look back at it, I rejoice because I’ve been forgiven and set free.
If God can do that for me, He can do it for you too!
Allow God to take control of your life. He will make it GLORIOUS.
I was inspired to write this blog after I read a blog(and the comments) titled, “Reclaiming Childhood” by Beauty Beyond Bones. Read that article here